Don't look back.............

Okay, this is a motherfucking public post, I'm going to spill my fucking guts out right here and now so you all will get off my fucking case.....I have two 'friends' that hate my guts......I have teachers riding up my ass about everything and anything.....I have other 'friends' that just don't seem to get it that I may not be in the best mood and then get mad at me when I snap at them........I can't help it sorry I'm so such a burden.....I have 2 projects due this week and haven't even started on them.....I have Liana yelling at me because I'm just not a fucking good enough friend (I know you didn't say that, but I can tell the way you act around me now).....My birthday is coming up and it seems like everyone had forgot, just like last year.....my mom told me that she's not getting me anything.....I'm not looking for a birthday card from my father since I haven't seen him in 5 fucking years........The person I like knows that I like them and thinks less of me......I've got people saying I said stuff that I didn't so they can get their friends mad at me.......my sister keeps telling my mom I do drugs......... I've made best friends with razor blades and pills......I could careless about anything that happens anymore......I'm losing my mind and no one believes me when I say that....I get poured with other people's problems and can't find time to help myself.....I hate pretty much everything......I tried to kill myself the other night, (I really don't care if you know anymore or not) I need mental help......though I have no money to get it because I'm trying to save up but people keep borrowing lunch money and never giving it back.......to sum it all up, I hate you, you hate me, I'm going to hell, who's coming with me?!?!